I Am My Own Worst Enemy
Remember in school when you had to read a novel or a play and one of the questions inevitably was, "What is the main character's fatal flaw?" Well, I've been thinking about that for myself.
I think my two worst qualities are that I'm impatient and greedy. 
Not greedy in the sense of "I want it all!" (a la Veruca Salt) but greedy in that I want more than I need or deserve and sometimes can't leave well enough alone. I will push a point or apply pressure to try to get my way and then, in my rush to get it, I end up losing what I already had in the process.
This tendency goes hand in hand with impatience, because if I were more patient and could wait for things, or if I could just be happy with the way things were, I wouldn't force something before it's ready and then ruin it as a result.
I suppose neither of these flaws are "fatal," but they sure are detrimental. At times I lose my temper, feel irritable and act rashly out of an emotional response--folks don't like that very much, I've found. If I could learn to rein these tendencies in--even a little--it would be an improvement, believe me.
Love of Diagrams --"Pace or the Patience" mp3 off Mosaic (buy)
Azure Ray --"New Resolution" mp3 off Hold On Love (buy)
You know what's funny? When I'm editing my blog and I hit the "save entry" button, a little message pops up that says "saving blog entry . . . please be patient." Ha.
I am incurably lazy about almost anything that actually matters. There is
so much fine distraction in this world that too often I simply can't be
bothered with whatever it is I'm meant to be doing and will go with the
distraction. This makes for a good many horribly late nights catching up
at the last minute with the essentials. You get a lot of blogging and like
done, though.
you sound like a world-class procrastinator! probably a trait shared by
many a dedicated blogger, otherwise we'd all be busy doing something else
more productive, wouldn't we? ;-)
We all have our intricacies, our nice bits, and our bits that we're not so
proud of. I too am a horrid procrastinator. Especially when it come to
certain aspects of life administration - some bits I just can't force
myself to do when they should be done. Taxes are the main culprit - always
filed at the last moment. Sigh. I'm also very conflict-averse. A good
thing in general, but occasionally it can lead to things not being
addressed in time, thus leading to BOOOM!
I know how you feel. All too well. I'm very impatient as well. Way too
impatient for my own good. I also compare myself to others and tell myself
they have it better. Character flaws suck. But that Azure Ray track is
amazing!
fil--that's probably another one of my flaws--my inability to look at my
"bad" qualities with detachment or without distate! oh well. thanks for
your kind words. i always appreciate them. and good for you and those
taxes! although i always figure why pay them any earlier than you have to
if you owe money?
I want everything now. now now now...waaaa....... :D
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