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Can I Be Honest With You?
posted Sunday, 24 September 2006
Can I be honest with you? I had a nice time in San Diego, I really did, but I don't think I could take living out there. Why? Because it's fucking sunny all the time. I don't think I could withstand the pressure of all that blue sky and sunshine.
Let me explain: The relentless sunshine was like forced gaiety, like the smile you fake to strangers. It was a cruel reminder of all that is missing, all that I can't have, all that can't be. I felt lost out there. I had nowhere to be and anywhere to go, and the only place I wanted to be was impossible to find.
Eels--"Mr E's Beautiful Blues (Untitled)" mp3 off Daisies of the Galaxy (buy)
Lambchop--"Your Fucking Sunny Day" mp3 off Old Enough to Know Better--15 Years of Merge Records (buy)
Think About Life--"The Blue Sun" mp3 off Think About Life (buy)
Skygreen Leopards--"Mother the Sun Makes Me Cry" mp3 off Life and Love in Sparrow's Meadow (buy)
Dirty on Purpose--"Girls & Sunshine" mp3 off Sleep Late for a Better Tomorrow (buy)
Let me explain: The relentless sunshine was like forced gaiety, like the smile you fake to strangers. It was a cruel reminder of all that is missing, all that I can't have, all that can't be. I felt lost out there. I had nowhere to be and anywhere to go, and the only place I wanted to be was impossible to find.
Eels--"Mr E's Beautiful Blues (Untitled)" mp3 off Daisies of the Galaxy (buy)
Lambchop--"Your Fucking Sunny Day" mp3 off Old Enough to Know Better--15 Years of Merge Records (buy)
Think About Life--"The Blue Sun" mp3 off Think About Life (buy)
Skygreen Leopards--"Mother the Sun Makes Me Cry" mp3 off Life and Love in Sparrow's Meadow (buy)
Dirty on Purpose--"Girls & Sunshine" mp3 off Sleep Late for a Better Tomorrow (buy)
share your thoughts (3)
1. FiL left...
Monday, 25 September 2006 2:38 pm :: http://www.pogoagogo.blogspot.com
Oh dear, mjrc, that has made me all sad for you... You'd like Vancouver
better, I wager. We get great sunshine, but buckets of rain too. Maybe
the real secret is to try to shift the focus from what one can't have/be to
what one can have/be. Easier said than done, I know, but...
2. mjrc left...
Monday, 25 September 2006 9:17 pm
thanks for the kind thoughts. i wish i could be more sanguine, but i'm a
mess half the time. you know, i've always wanted to visit vancouver--maybe
i could talk my husband into having a business trip out there next time!
3. FiL left...
Monday, 25 September 2006 10:52 pm :: http://pogoagogo.blogspot.com/
Riding on the coattails of a business trip is the way to go - my wife did
that to me a couple of times while we lived in the UK. Stockholm and
Amsterdam - both were great fun!
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