A Hole in My Soul
Anyway, part of my problem is that I feel disconnected spiritually. (Jesus--are you listening?) I'm just not sure my soul is still intact. I suppose it is. I mean, otherwise I'd be dead, right? But it's definitely not firing on all cylinders. Too many disappointments, too much disillusionment, too much heartbreak and loss in too short of a time have damaged it.
UNKLE--"Lonely Soul" mp3 off Psyence Fiction (buy).
Metric--"Empty" mp3 off Live It Out (buy).
It goes without saying that I highly recommend whatever I post, but these three songs are really great. The UNKLE song is almost symphonic, it's so lovely. Just after the 6 min. mark, it turns into something else entirely, with the syncopated marching-band drum riff propelling it against the sustained strings in an almost--dare I say it?--uplifting way.
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Hey, mjrc. Just keep on talkin', sweetie. I once heard therapy described
as talking over and over about what bothers you until it doesn't anymore.
It's not that simple, of course, but the conversation is the main thing.
Your soul is definitely intact, and it is a good one.
thanks, wre. i keep plugging--what else can i do? the lyrics on that simple
kid song are really great, i agree.
I feel that you were speaking my own thoughts with that post. Hang in
there. Little by very little, it gets better.
so are most bloggers actually depressed people or does it just so happen
that the blogs i like to read are written by sad souls? : )
I think it's so brave of you to be able to say how you feel and a
tremendous demonstration that you've built a network of friends around you.
As to spirituality, I find that volunteering regularly helps me feel
spiritually centered, as well as providing a lot of perspective on whatever
is going on in my own life. Good luck with everything!
Hey Marcy, I think many of us are on the same journey. Can I point you to
a post I wrote back in August on my mother-in-law's funeral? It's at
http://pogoagogo.blogspot.com/2006/08/she-is-now-wherever-we-are.html. Not
sure if you saw it, but there are links to two poems, Rilke's "Letters To A
Young Poet" and "The Guesthouse" by Rumi, that I have found very centering.
fraser--thanks for being so supportive. i feel extremely fortunate to have
gotten to know so many truly kind folks through this blog. i know it does a
lot of good to get outside of yourself, even and especially when you're
feeling like i do. so i'll try.
I think it's great and very positive that you say upfront that you are
using blogging as therapy. I think way too many people use it as therapy
without admitting it and without confronting the effect on the reader.
aw, mentok, that's really nice of you to say. i'm probably a little
bitchier in real life, but i try to stay true to my real self as much as i
can. i try to keep in mind that it's a process, which is a fairly buddhist
way of looking at things, right? : )
yr one of my favorites, becos it feels safe over here. like you *honestly*
understand. thankyou... ;)
that is one of the kindest things anyone's ever said to me. : )
I'm in love with your soul. Hang in there. Your life gets better. I've
seen it. 'll like it. I love you.
jesus, i'm trying to come up with a smart-ass comment, but i can't. all i
can say is thank you so much for saying that. i love you too.
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