A Little Green

I've been reading your blog for a few months now. First, I was hooked because of your awesome taste in music and the entertaining way you write. I also always look forward to hearing your contributions to the Contrast Podcast. The deal was sealed with your DeVotchKa post last month. I thought..."Wow...a kind of soulmate here". But, today's post prompted me to write because it articulates so well how I feel about the whole happiness thing. My husband, the most cheerful, optimistic person in the world, can never understand why I can't "Just be happy". Well, at least I have music! Thanks so much for your great blog.

aw, tricia, thanks so much for saying all that! i'm so glad you like the music and everything else. and it's really reassuring to know that i'm not the only one feels like i do sometimes. i really appreciate your sharing that. : )

You know my boyfriend is a total optimist as well and I am so not, I am much more on the negative end of the spectrum...I can totally relate to this post Marcy! I think everyone has there own happiness and it is hard for others to understand that especially our loved ones. Great post!

thanks, rachel. i like the way you put that, everyone has their own happiness . . . maybe i have some i just don't know what it looks like these days. : )

Marcy....

Given that you're blog has all of the following in abundance - style, talent, class and wit - then I reckon its fair for anyone to conclude that you have the same attributes in your personality.

Personally, I always thought that your blog was a happy one for the most part.....

I think there are times when everyone of us feels nothing when we reckon we should be happy, and this creates the effect of making us think we're miserable.

You asked a question..."do I really not feel it or do I simply not recognize it? Or is it so underdeveloped at this point that I can't even generate it?"

You certainly generate happiness in others - probably to the extent that you dont realise just how much you generate and just how naturally easy it is for you to do so.

As a line in a song I know goes.....'Just look around you, you know it aint no lie. H.A.P.P.Y.'

i go through that same feeling all the time, but as strange as it seems even though we feel nothing or empty.. at least we know what that "feels" like.

sit under the sun, relax with a cool drink and enjoy some music on a pair of headphones :) thats happiness to me.

jc--you are too kind. : ) i really appreciate your encouragement. i suppose the blog does seem fairly upbeat these days, but if you were to go back and re-read some of my earlier stuff, you would be able to tell how depressed i was. long-time readers can attest to the fact that it was sad-song city around here for most of 2006 and into early 2007. between colin, liz and myself we had the melancholy music scene covered!

danielle--i think i get what you mean--we wouldn't know what we were missing if we'd never felt it at all. you are so wise. i tried to take good care of myself today, like you said. hope you were able to do the same. : )